The Diary
30 January 2010
Don't give out to me.
I've been quiet since Jenny passed.
I have to upload those beautiful poems that Emmy wrote to me about Jenny but for now, I just can't do it as it reminds me that Jenny is gone.
Give me a week or so and I'll upload Emmy's amazing poems.
Today I planted flowers on Jenny's grave while it snowed. It was the first time I stood at her grave. I cried. I called her name.
At least Jenny is still here with me on my land.
I had a beautiful photo of Jenny framed with her mane included and it came out so well. It is now hanging right beside my bed so whenever I sleep Jenny sleeps beside me as does Buttons.
Not long after Jenny passed my cousin Patrick asked me if I would take a Shetland pony that needed a home. I was in a daze after poor Jenny passed but I said yes. His name is Paddy and he is here about 10 days now. Paddy is so tiny. His nose is at the same height as the sheep! Blackie thinks Paddy is a big dog and he chases him away to protect Scruffy and Pixie. At the moment Paddy had not managed to get into the "herd" but I'll give it time. I did see him standing beside Pixie yesterday and that is a start.
As it is snowing tonight Paddy is in the stables drying out as he was a tad soaked after a night of snow.
I am trying to give Paddy love and attention and yet my heart is still missing Jenny so much.
In animal welfare there is no time to grieve.
There is always another pet looking to take up an empty bed in a pet sanctuary. I know Jenny would be happy that Paddy is here but I miss Jenny so much I am finding it hard to really bond with a new pet so soon-but I'll take care of Paddy: sure don't you know I will.
I've not been taking many photos recently. I'll get one of Paddy over the next few days.
I am still waiting to hear if Bengy will make it or not. Blackie needs a horse companion now and so I hope Bengy does make it so he can be Blackie's mate. Blackie misses Jenny too.
To be honest I knew Jenny was fading which is why I had Bengy lined up so that Blackie would not be without a mate. I knew Jenny was getting weaker but I could not really admit this to myself. I was right though. That is why I focused on rescuing Bengy. Something told me Blackie would need a new mate.
I hope Bengy makes it now.
Talk Soon
Annette 
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